I haven't move on. Not yet.
Every single day I'm still hoping to see her again, to cuddle her inside my arm, to feel the warmth of her fur, to see her sleep, to let her lick my hands...to do everything we used to do together.
I am used to have her around from I opened my eyes in the morning until I closed my eyes at night. She was my companion and it's just too early to let her go.
Every single day I keep on saying to myself, hoping she would listen.
"mama sayang KiKi, mama rindu KiKi".
I'm still in pain. In deep pain...and nobody could stop me from feeling this.